Second Route

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. It was a c r a z y day. I don't remember much of it, but I know that I'm exhausted.

The Ghost was giving me a hard time today, saying that I wasn't finishing my second route early enough and that people were starting to complain. I told him I was doing the best that I could. He said he'd give me another week to improve and if not, he was going to take my second route away. I honestly don't know how I'm going to get any faster, I already feel like I'm going as fast as I can. I just want a vacation. I just want to go on this vision quest.

Today, I talked to Stella. I held the urn and asked her what I should do. I said, "Stella, what should I do?" But, she didn't say anything. I guess it's one of those things I have to figure out on my own. What should I do? What am I doing? When I was a kid, I wanted to chase tornadoes. When someone asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I said I wanted to be a storm chaser. But now, I don't know what I want to do with my life. All I know is that the days are passing and I'm not getting any younger!

What I think is that one should do what one wants to do and do things as they want one day at a time. Whew! How convoluted, eh? Let me give you a for instance. Today, I wanted to make butter, so I did (it was delicious! (it was a blue cheese butter!)) I started reading a book and I didn't like it, so I stopped because I wanted to stop (it was about some big house with seven or eight gables). I wanted to take a walk to the library, so I did.

I just have to take things one day at a time. Tomorrow, I'm going to do the best I can with my second route. We'll see what happens.