oi!

I don't hate the holidays. It's such a funny feeling I get--so many good things, but so many bad things, the emotions all swirling around inside at the same time. Part of me dreads it, part of me wants it to be here as soon as November hits. I want to be around family right now, but I want it to be family I want to be around. And I guess that family doesn't exist.
This Christmas, I hate. I want it to be over.