I had an emotional day yesterday. This guy at the diner, Raymond, asked me a lot of personal questions, and for some reason I was compelled to be really truthful with him. It was hard. Not that I'm usually dishonest exactly, but most of the time, I divert or evade. It's not like I was really uncomfortable at all, or anything like that. It was just heavy, if you want to know the truth. I got home and couldn't blog, I just couldn't. It's like I had gotten so much out earlier, that I didn't have anything left.
So I was off today, and I thought I needed a 'pick-me-up', so I said to Warden, "I think it's time we watched my #7 all time favorite movie together." Babe. It was just what I needed.
I was hoping to get some sort of emotional reaction out of Warden, but he didn't really do anything. He kicked his leg a lot, but that's when I was scratching his "spot". He also licked my face at some poignant moments, but he was licking me basically through the whole movie.
It rained all day, so I'm happy I did something to distract myself in a happy way. Mother's day is coming up, and that's always hard for me. It never gets any easier.
I thought about thinking about looking for another job. Dish-washing is fine for now, but not forever I don't think. We'll see. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually think about it, for real.
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