Tension. Release.

I should tell you , first off, that I have taken a muscle relaxer. I am feeling okay, but a while back I got a prescription and I didn't use them all. And today I took one just because. I guess I am feeling tense. Or I guess I was feeling tense. I am feeling good now.

I shouldn't have told you that. I regret it now. What kind of person am I? It wasn't even a muscle relaxer for me. It was for Burning Sand. He was yelping when he was pooping and whenever he got on the bed. And then he went to the vet and got a prescription. But then he was fine. And there are these pills lying around. Does Monica know that I am that kind of person? That I would just casually pop a pill that was prescribed for her dog? Does she really want to live with a person like that?

Am I only unique because I admitted freely to doing such a thing?

Listen. We all have choices to make. We talked, Monica and I. Do you want to know the truth? We have gone beyond just talking. She is very nice. The amount of money she says I need to pay each month, it is not that much. I can make that much working Saturdays overnight stuffing ad flyers in the weekend edition. I can make that much doing odd jobs for the kennel. Live free or die. Who says that? Do they believe it?

Today, here, in the morning it was raining and it smelled like spring, and in the afternoon we were buried under more snow. Monica said that this winter is intent on reminding us all about how great it is when the spring comes and we are truly free.

Right now, I am drinking a Dark and Stormy. I am relaxed. I am forgetting tomorrow.